So back in the end of March I really had to get present to myself. I was finally working on finishing the last part of this curriculum I had been taking for Landmark. I did the initial Landmark Forum back in July of 2016. I did the Advanced Course in September of 2016 and started the final part called the Self Expression and Leadership course in March of this year.
It’s been a rather interesting undertaking and been getting present to a few things that I never really thought about. But one aspect of the final program is take a community that you’re connected to and have a way to transform it. The community I wanted to transform into something new had to be my family. I had a few things I wanted to do.
- Share myself in a real matter with my family as I feel like they don’t really get who I am.
- Figure out where the hell we came from and get that outlined somehow.
- Learn more about my family and who they are.
Currently with my family things are always a bit odd. We show up and everything is rather generic in communication. It would appear that things have also gotten distant after my grandmother passed away in November of 2015. While that was hard I just want to be present and share myself. I want to take the stand that everyone wins.
So to do that I came up with the following. To accomplish #1 I thought about what I have done over the years and I had a pretty odd blog where I just wrote things down for a good run daily and weekly for around 10 years. I wanted to expand on any content on there and basically get my life written down into something that I could share and look at what I did. Here is who I am and get that put into a new blog or perhaps a book.
To accomplish #2 I signed up for an ancestry.com account and paid for a few months to do some research. I also paid for a DNA test and wanted to have the end goal of learning about some stranger in my family and get to know them.
I plan on writing about that experience on this site later.
The third thing I wanted to do was interview my family members. Get to know them better and have them write a story about what their experience of life is. Something about themselves just create a clearing for sharing everything.
Now I had three months to do this in the course but what I have learned is writing a book and doing research which now turns out to be 100’s of people isn’t easy. Some of those ancestors in the 1800’s had 12 kids. Going down those tree’s hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world either. So here I am in the program with a few weeks left and nowhere near where I would like to be. But I will carry on and press forward to get this done.
If anyone has any ideas or thoughts I would love to hear them.